Give Thanks

I have been dwelling on some negative things lately and I feel like I'm in a rut.  I'm not skinny enough, people don't like me, I don't have any friends, I can never sleep, I feel isolated much of the time, I can't go on dates with my husband because my baby won't take a bottle, I can't leave the house because it's too hot......the list goes on.  I am a wimp sometimes and here is my signal to myself that I need to suck it up and move on.

I have a wonderful, amazing, respectful, kind, hot, funny, supportive husband who is my world.  He means everything to me.  He is an incredible companion and is a great father.  He worries about me and always has my best interest in mind.  He goes out of his way to do special things for me and to make me feel good about myself.  He encourages me to do things by myself or with friends and makes sure to tell me that he loves me.  He is the best and only friend I ever will need.

I have a handsome little son who is so fun to be around.  Yes, things can be hard, but I knew that going in.  I am very blessed to be able to stay at home with him to watch him grow and help him as much as I can.

I can now go on dates with my husband because my son miraculously started taking a sippy cup this past week.  This is a huge blessing because we had been really stressing about leaving Elliot with my brothers for about 4-5 hours on vacation when Brian gets married, and now we won't worry nearly as much.  He's almost 6 months old and we would be more okay with leaving him with a babysitter now that he's older.

I have a relationship with my Savior and I know that He lives.  Not many people can say that they have had the true gospel in their lives always, and I am blessed to be in that number.  Even when I feel alone and isolated, I know that Heavenly Father is just a prayer away and that He is waiting to help me.

It has been cooler the past several days!  We are going on walks and getting outside more often and I don't feel so cooped up in the house all the time.

I am skinny!  And it is okay that I still have a couple of pounds left.  They're supposed to be there until I'm done nursing.  Being a little more curvy isn't a bad thing.  The stretch marks are fading and I'm feeling healthier all the time.  I can workout now without feeling like I have died afterwards, so this is promising.

I do have friends.  Many of them are far away, but I have friends in my new area as well.  I just need to continue trying to meet people and I will eventually feel more like I have a place here.

I am going on vacation next week and it is much needed.  It will still be a lot of work since it will be Mr. Elliot's first big trip, but we are going to celebrate the start of the marriage of my little brother Brian.  I'm so excited to gain a sister and for Brian to experience the joys of marriage.  Our family has been so blessed to add two members to it this year.

I am incredibly blessed.  These are the things that I wish to dwell on.